Let me start off by saying that for the past five and a half months I have wanted to start this blog. I wanted something to journal my thoughts of being a first time mom, but also something to give daily/weekly/monthly updates of Lils to my family and friends that live far away. She keeps me on my toes 24/7, okay maybe now it's more like 14/7 because she actually sleeps at night, but truly she's a piece of work and I find it hard to make time for myself during the day.
Each day is a new day, but with some of the same characteristics of the days pass. It's become routine with her. I could practically do all that I do with my eyes closed, no really! I've also mastered the task of doing almost everything with one hand. I never imagined being left handed as I've been right handed all my life, but with Lils...I'm really becoming a pro as a lefty.
I think I'm finally mastering motherhood, too. It's certainly a tough, life changing experience to say the least. What they often portray on tv isn't at all what it's like in real life. It's hard, hard work. It's never ending. But the rewards of being a mom is completely worth it.
The pregnancy I had before Lils that ended in miscarriage took a toll on me. I felt broken, upset, and at a lost for understanding. I always believed that everything happens for a reason, but at that time, that statement meant absolutely nothing to me. Looking back now though, I've found my understanding. Had that pregnancy of stayed, I wouldn't have the little girl I have now. God gives you what you need, when you need it. He gives you what you can handle. Seeing how challenging raising a child can get, I am now thankful I had a bit more "me" time. A bit more time to grow. There are days I simply feel exhausted and truly do wonder "what have I gotten myself into?" but at the end of each day I wouldn't change being a mom to Lils for anything in the world. The past five and a half months have truly been the best days of my life.
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